This was your day. The day we had counted up so many times when we first found out about you! The day you were expected to arrive into the world and change our lives forever. Mama and daddy wanted you more than anything, you know. The little time we had with you, you were already so incredibly loved by so many. We had your life planned out, so many hopes and dreams. But we didn’t expect you to leave us so soon. No, we never saw your face, felt you move, heard you cry, counted all your little toes or fingers or held you in our arms but that doesn’t change our love for you. You brought so much joy into our lives for those few weeks. You were mama and daddy’s very first precious little miracle that we created and you’ll always hold that title. As we’ve always said, we know you’re waiting patiently for us to get to you and you’re watching over us and that’s been so very comforting. Even more so now that you have a baby brother or sister there with you. I’m still not sure why both of you have been taken away from us so soon but I know I’ll hold you both one day and our family will finally be complete. Until then, you’ll continue to always be on my mind. I’ll be seeing you, baby.
P.S. Thank you for watching over daddy during his surgery today.
funny ttc signs
-the Big ‘O’ no longer refers to orgasm, but instead to ovulation
- you show everyone who will look at your bbt charts
- every twinge is a potential sign: ovulation pain OR perhaps implantation
- it no longer strikes you as the least bit odd to check out at the pharmacy with both HPTs and tampons in your cart.
- you schedule your social events around your ovulation day
- if your OPK comes up +, you cancel all social engagements that night so you can BD & lie with your legs elevated and butt up in the air afterwards
- you talk using mysterious acronymns that only your ttc buddies understand: ttc, BD, ewcm, bbt, opk, 2ww
- your morning motto is: “Don’t talk to me until I’ve taken my temperature”
- you take your temperature more than once a day (committed TTCer)
- you refuse to finish decorating that 3rd bedroom in your new house, because you can’t stand the thought of getting it just the way you want it only to have to tear it apart next month in order to make room for the nursery you’ll be needing.
- you put off buying any fall/winter clothes, because you hope they won’t fit by the time the weather gets cooler.
- you clip coupons for OPKs and HPTs
- your doctor says, “Now take these home and inject this needle into your stomach every day” and you don’t even flinch.
- you spend more on OPKs, HPTs, and fertility supplements than you do on clothes
- the thought of nausea makes your heart skip a beat!
- you make a mental note of what day of your cycle it is before you say “ok” to a drink
- you get sick but make sure you can take the medicine in case you are pregnant…and would rather stay sick if you can’t take the medicine..
- you finally look forward to mornings! Another opportunity to take and record your temp!
- you refer (and think) of your husband, not as his real name, but as the letters “DH” in real life
- you suffer silently from Infertility Vision (IV) - defined as the ability to see pink lines that nobody else can see. It’s a very common condition among POASers during the days leading up to the official test day. Research is still being done, but at present there is no cure for it!
Dear Too Beautiful For Earth,
My dreams seldomly become a reality but you gave me the opportunity to dip my toe into the dream world and therefore gave me my favorite memory. I will never forget how you made me feel…now my favorite memory…that has bumped everything else I ever experienced down quite a few notches. Who would have ever thought that my favorite memory would be feeling responsible, not in control, gaseous, bloated, sore, tired, and nauseated? I know I surely didn’t, but it is.
Memory Never Forgotten,
Your Holder of Heart
What no one told you: a collection of thoughts from women facing the emotional roller coaster of infertility - twoweekwait.com (via beautifullytainted)
oh so disgustingly true!